I have not even attempted to post even the most scanty and pitiful post in eons so I decided that I should take some time out of my busy schedule to sit down and recollect my thoughts and try to better myself with a bit of self-reflection. I'm writing this as I sit in my sixth period, while Mr. B is giving the freshies a lecture on fungi... yeah... Things have been so topsy turvy as of late. I can not recollect what I wrote in my last blog and this damn computer blocks any website with a blog so I can go and look at it so I’m just going to guess. Did I mention how I went to visit ASU??? Okay, so I went on a long trip with my father and sister to Arizona state university because she was really intent on going there and she had already gotten accepted- I think... The trip was fun but the car ride was torture, I just sat in the back and teetered the fine line between sleep and restlessness the entire time. There were not that many cute college boys but it didn't matter, because the entire time I was distracted because I was texting my friend/ ex-bf about his recent breakup with some hyper spazz girl that I never had much of a liking for. Since I was texting him and helping him entire time I was in ASU, I started to remember what it was about him that attracted me to him- his passion. It never ceases to amaze me at how passionate he is about everything, although I will admit that sometimes it gets a little annoying but when it comes to things like music, he passion is inspirational. I was really starting to fall for him again- and fall hard. I came home on the Sunday and bought Twilight on DVD and watched it with my sister. The following Monday I picked up my progress report because I had been on my trip when they were originally handed out. I opened the progress report and saw the scariest thing starting back at me. It was an F... my whole heart just sank... So I felt thing giant cloud descend upon me and it just countinued to grow as the day progressed because I knew that my parents would not be the least bit pleased with me. I was right- they took away my cell phone, they put me on probation, and a bunch of other horrible punishments as well. A few days later was April fools day... and un-known to me; it would be one of the most shocking days of my life thus far. My parents were being unusually quiet during dinner and I knew something was up the second they said they wanted to have a talk during dinner... "We have to move" my dad said gravely. "This is just a horrible April fool’s day joke, right?" "No" "oh" and I proceeded to lock myself in my room and cry. My house! It was my house and no one had the right to take it away from me. I didn’t blame my parents because I could see how much it hurt them to have to mover out of our house. My dad set the day that we would have to be out of the house and into a new apartment. It was three weeks away and everyday was a getting harder and harder to come to terms with the fact that things were about to change.

Wow… I totally wrote that a week ago but haven’t had time to finish it, so I’ll try to finish and post it today, so I see where I left off in my blog so I’ll just start from there because I think you get the big idea of what has been happening.

So far things have been less then smooth between me and Melissa; we’ve been hanging out and things are getting better but neither of us is ready to just forget the past yet. I think our biggest step towards becoming closer was the AP English literature and composition entrance exam because I had no ride to the school to take it so I had to spend the night at her house. It was like old times, we were just goofing around and eating chocolate and then we were complaining about how her dog’s incessant barking. And we have been hanging out most days after school whether it be at her house, Alyssa’s house or Sarah’s house. The biggest issue lately was my Spanish video project that took forever to film because I had the flakiest actors and I’m the craziest direction/ videographer/ editor/ script writer/ actor… so things got really intense and me and Melissa got into a very odd fight about food and other odd things so we didn’t talk to each other for around three or four days but then she had a concert coming up so I decided that we would just forget about it… and then it happened… me, Melissa, Sarah, and Alyssa were just hanging out and downtown Disney and due to some unfortunate events I was late for curfew… by forty minutes. My dad over-reacted and grounded me for two months. I put up one hell of a fight every time they tried to enforce it because in the end I had no reason to be blamed- it took forever to get on the tram, it took a while to get to Melissa’s car and we hit traffic. Do I have control over traffic??? NO, I DON’T!!! But whatever… I have been starting to lose my patience with my parents lately because they are overreacting to everything, they yell at me for everything, they nag me about everything, and they seem do be do9ing things with the pure intent of making me unhappy and it would be a flat out lie to say it isn’t working. A few nights ago I had a surge of anger with them and I was on the verge of just getting up and running away but my friend talked me out of it and that is when I came up with a plan, it’s not just a plan, it’s The plan…I have decided to use my resources for my advantage. I already have a bedroom set up in my grandparents house (it’s a long story why and I’ll save it for another day) and I know that they would be perfectly happy if I went to live with them, and after a quick discussion, my assumption was correct. I know it may seem evil but sometimes desperate times call for desperate measures, I am now using my escape to my grandparents’ house as blackmail over my parents. When they get to unbearable I just now have to mention something about moving into my grandparents’ house and they crumble into my hands. I swear not to abuse my new found power and will only make use of it when I feel that I am on the verge of having a mental breakdown, because I’ve had them before… it isn’t fun… SO my two month ground has now become a two week grounding which is ending after today.

Lately I’ve had a crap load of homework and assignments because it’s almost the end of the school year (yay!) so I’ve been under a bunch of stress (boo!) but jus this morning I took the ACT test at my school and last Saturday I took the SAT at Valley Christian high school, where I lost my i.d. card (sigh…) and to make matters worse, I have a fine left over from last semester of drumline so I couldn’t get my yearbook on Thursday but someone was going to call and defer the payment but they never did so I couldn’t get it Friday either… so I’m going to have to wait until Monday to get mine which really kind of sucks but I’m playing it off as not giving a crap…

My Spanish grade is now a solid ‘C’ YAY! So I get to keep my cell phone which means I get to upgrade to a new cell phone for my birthday. I’m uuber excited…

I’ve been making plans… great amazing plans… plans to go on the vaca of a lifetime… with my best friends… it’s going to be amazing so I pray to god that everything works out… it won’t take place until Christmas break but I can wait. It is just going to be me and my three hooligans… yay!

Oh but I do have some bad news to share, my grandmothers brother died a few weeks ago… I didn’t really know him but it hurts me to see my grandmother grieving. On a slightly more selfish note, I found out that the jaw surgery that my sister got last summer and that I was supposed to get this summer isn’t going to happen because the crack pot of an orthodontist that I have says that I’m not ready which means I’ll have to do it during the summer after my senior year which means that I have to waste most of the last summer I’ll ever have with my friends before our lives really start, by sitting in a hospital with a swollen face that will make me looking like a freaking chipmunk… I am not looking forward to that at all.

White walls. White walls. White walls… the entire apartment has white walls and we aren’t allowed to paint them, so I’m gong to just put up a crap load of posters and I’m going to re-theme my room is black/blue/ and magazine.“Sabrina… what could you possibly mean by magazine???”I’m glad you asked. Ever heard of decoupage, me neither, until my dad told me about it. You cut out pictures from magazines and you use a special glaze to make it stick to a flat surface… So I’m going to decoupage my dresser and a few other parts of my room and I’m gong to get new bed stuff, new curtains, and a new cover for the make-up table.

Although this apartment is ridiculously tiny, it has potential, maybe…

So my latest AP English class assignment was to research colleges and I did, and the five I chose to research (in order from reach school to fall back): Cornell University, Northern Michigan University, California state University of Monterey Bay, Eastern Washington University, and California State University of Fresno…

I don’t want to go to Cornell, I need to go to Cornell… but my GPA is not really as high as the usual but I will remain hopeful but right now the college that I’m 85% sure that I am going to attend is CSMB, which is very nice. My cousin went there for her freshmen year about two years ago and she had a good time and she learned a lot. I’m not sure what I want to major in yet so that really didn’t help in picking which colleges I wanted to look into because I’m still debating between becoming a cinematographer or a veterinarian… so I tried to choose colleges that offered both majors…

Okay, my hands are begging to feel the burn from typing so much so I think I’ll stop here… thank you for listening to me rant about my life…

OMG i almost forgot to mention my totally awesome new hair cut... yes, i got a totally awesome new hair cut, thanks for noticing!! Everyday i feel more and more like a scene kid, all i need is a vest, a head band, and more big worded t-shirts... I'm too harsh on my own people...

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- Sabrina <33