As usual my first blog attempt tonight wouldn't post and then it got eraswd and now i'm furious yet again at my stupid cell phone because it was a brilliant post and i'll never be able to recreate it. i'm debating wheather or not to even try... I just completed hours and hours of homework so i'm dead tired so i guess my attempt to recreate my post must wait... well maybe i'll give you a little taste of what i talked about.
latelty i've come to appreciate the friend i've made in my math class. it brings me such joy to know that she actually and truely values my company and conversation, which isn't something i'm at all used to. Seeing how much she actually enjoys hanging out with me has led me to question the bond i have with three people i refer to as my best friends. Things just aren't the same with us and it never will be because they couldn't possibly comprehend what i went through and what i sacraficed for the love of my life and also for their sake. I will always stand by my decision and i will never regret doing what i did for them but what it all boila down to is that i'm changing and maturing and figuring out who i am while they aren't any different then they were freshman year. i love them and we had some of my best memories together but i just feel that along with my leaving for college will be the leaving behind of whats left of our friendship.
ok, thats all i can type without passing out from exhaustion.
good night.
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