There's no way to word this that won't come off sounding like an ass so I'll just be frank about it- I'm smarter than most people.
This statement comes from a few sources. My dad and his side of my family all have what my mother has nicknames the Gamboa-superiority-complex. But it's justified. My father and both my uncles are the smartest men I have ever met. Not as in phd's or anything like that. But their knowledge of real world situations and life is unbeatable. They all have been extensive and rabid readers since they were young boys. They know all there is about computers and they are modern age jacks-of-all-trades. My dad can turn a piece of wood into a beautiful masterpiece, whip out anything craft related with his eyes shut, discuss current politics, and trump anyone (short of Steven Colbert) on their knowledge of all things Tolkien.
I won't flatter myself by saying that I'm as intelligent (or useful) as any of them but they have all pushed me in an intellectually-founded direction in my life. My reading level has always been light years above my peers and my knowledge base is far wider than any twenty-year-old I've ever met. (I will concede to several brilliant kids that attended my high school- of which I believe two of them may end up being among the brightest minds of our generation)
You might be asking yourself why I'm spending so much time sounding like a pompous idiot. Well, rest assured that there is a point.
Because of my superior intelligence (in relativity to my own age group) I have never had any real difficulty in classes. I never really received a bad grade that wasn't just a direct result of my sheer laziness. I've always found homework to be tedious and repetitive and do my utmost best to avoid it at all costs. But thanks to my intelligence and test-taking skills, I've been able to coast through school very easily. Putting in almost no effort while still getting good grades.
Well, it's finally caught up with me.
As a junior in college, the workload is finally at a level that challenges me. Part of me loves it but most of me hates it with a passion. I've never cultivated study skills, or the patience for hours and hours of homework and I'm now paying the price.
I'm failing almost every class this semester (and several last semester) because I can't get myself to focus and do the necessary work.
Dammit why couldn't my parents have told me that I was an idiot so that I would have a better work ethic?
As much as I wish I could blame them, I know it's my own fault. Laziness has been my number one skill for far too long but things need to change or i'm going to have to retake microeconomics for a third fucking time and absolutely no one wants that. (Pretty sure that teacher may feint if I show up in her class again next semester)
So I need to figure out how this whole "work and study ethics" thing works.
It isn't going to cut into my tumblr time too much, right?
I don't love studying. I hate studying. I like learning. Learning is beautiful.
Natalie Portman
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- Sabrina
P.s. Here's a song I found this morning that i'm already in love with! Lewis Watson has an amazing voice and the lyrics are beautiful :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iIVe85qzzQY
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