Sorry for taking a long absense from posting. it's been a very taxing time for me, both mentally and physically. hmmm i guess i'll talk about the bad things first... so there was this kid i went to elementary school with and we were extremely good friends but contact was dropped when i switched schools in sixth grade, and for the past couple of months i've been hanging out with elementary school friends and that boy dropped by during when i was with my friends. He was a short skinny kid in elementary school, but now he's tall and built and does football and basketball. So me and him were so close again so quickly and he ended confessing that he had a crush on me throughout elementary school and he also said that he thought of me frequently after i had switched schools. We started dating and he eventually asked me to be his girlfriend which i completly agreed to. i'm not gonna pretend that TBIL wasn't a motivating factor in my eagerness to get a boyfriend... but anyways, we were getting along fine until the truth came out. the boy that claimed to share my same straightedge views was not only a druggie but a fucking dealer. then he had the nerve to get angry at me when i told him that i won't be in a relationship with anyone who abuses drugs. he called me a lot of horrible names because i 'was such a stuck up moral preaching bitch.' it'd be a normals persons presumption that i hate him, but i don't. i don't love him, but i remember what a deep bond we share so i want to help him stop using. to be clear, i will not go out with him now or ever but i will always be his friend and friends help friends fight their personal demons. everyone keeps telling me that i'm too young to be taking on his problems but i refuse to accept that and just give up on him, even though he doesn't know it he needs my help. the stress rash thingys on my hands are getting worse because i keep picking at it and now it's spread to my neck and face. my parents are trying to hide it but i know the rashes scare them and are making them worry about me more then usual. i just got to experience the joyful stress that comes with filling out college applications for the first time. after a long fought battle, i was allowed to apply to tge school i actually do want to attend,cal state monterey but as part of a compromise with my mother i can only go to monterey if i get rejected from both humboldt and cal poly pomona. i applied to five schools in all. i have more bad news but i'm just gonna skip it and move to the good news. my sister got to come home from college over thanksgiving break so it was nice to see her and hang out like old times. i text her like everyday but it was cool to have her back home. i took her friday night to a game of broomball my church was hosting, it was a lot of fun except my best friend brought her neighbor who is so annoying but my otger friend's older brother was there and his sheer amount of awkwardness brings me smiles. oh i've recently made a new friend in my math class and i guess it really is true that nothing brings people together quite like a common enemy. we both sgare a disgust for this obnoxious kid who thinks he is gods gift to mankind. mynew friend is totally awesome and loves kat von d even more then i do. she was kat for halloween and even drew on most of the tattoos kat has. she's an amazingly gifted artist and i love to look at her artwork. okay i'm super tired but i'll try to post tomorrow night but i gotta add some things before i end this post.
first,my friend and i took a spurr of the moment trip to las vegas thedat before halloween and since we left at nine at night we didn't get to vegas until two am on halloween. i'd never been to vegas before, it was amazing. i'll go more in detail about that in another post later on. can't think anymore... good night...
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