stupid thoughts

I woke up this morning with a killer headache.

My sister was attempting to wake me up but after about ten minutes of fruitless effort, she finally gave up and went to eat breakfast.

No joke, Wednesday is the hardest day to wake up.

So I just put my pillow over my face and went back to sleep for an extra half hour.

So I only had five minutes to get dressed, slap on some make up, and swallow a quick breakfast.

So needless to say, I was kind of a mess today

But that extra half hour really improved my day.

So I had to ride my bike to school. (Not really)

And it was raining (really)

But I liked it.

During the ‘bike ride’ I was thinking about how I’m always thinking.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m going to die from my brain exploding from stress.

I constantly over analyze everything.

I was suddenly jarred from my own thoughts when my knee started to kill me.

I think I may have done some serious damage to it when I fell off my bike when I was on my way to the library yesterday.

On another note, I’ve decided to start looking for a new best friend because the one I currently have is special Ed.

Everything revolves around boys.

But I guess that would be a lie to say that I wasn’t the same exact way.

I’m not sure what kind of friend I’m looking for.

Obviously that can’t be too crazy.

They need to love music as much as I do.

And they need to be as sarcastic as humanly possible.

I’ve been listening to Owl City so much lately.

I feel like I’ve been neglecting my other bands.

Maybe I’ll go listen to some White Tie Affair right now.

My nose has been running all day.

I think I’m getting sick.

I’m always sick.

Wtf.

I’m sorry that I have absolutely nothing to talk about today.

My mind is just so full that I can’t organize it and put it down.

I’m just so confused about so much right now.

My grades are slipping but I honestly don’t care.

My parents are flipping out over all the economic stress.

My family is moving apart.

My sister is leaving soon.

I’m leaving soon.

One of my best friends is suicidal.

I contemplated running away.

I hate my own mind to the point where death seems like the only solution to quiet all these incessantly nagging thoughts.

What did I just write?

I’m so sorry; I don’t even know what just came over me.

I think I may have finally creaked.

Well it’s about damn time.

I need to go take Advil.

Goodbye.

"Thoughts are the shadows of our feelings- always darker, emptier and simpler." - Friedrich Nietzche