pondering...

I now have a fear of answering my cell or reading new text messages. They are all from the same person. They are from the same creepy overbearing angry person. I don’t want to write about that but I thought I should just get it out there just in case I get I’m found dead or missing, people will know where to start looking. Well I’m not afraid that he’ll kill me, I’m just afraid that he’ll do something completely irrational and stupid and thoughtless and impulsive!

There have been few updates since my last post but I guess I’ll list them out.

My sister came back from her vacation and took her laptop back so I’m writing this on the computer. No one is home right now because Amelia went with her friend to the midnight showing of Harry Potter, I would have gone but I don’t really like the Harry Potter movies, they seem a tad over dramatic to me.

Yesterday I went and took my senior portrait pictures for the yearbook, which was... an experience. I had to wear this ridiculous long sleeve black shirt that I was practically melting in because it’s been so damn hot lately. I was completely self-0conscious the entire time because I knew who was gonna be their at the same time as me... and I think he knew it too. My... hmmm, I actually don’t know what he is to me, a friend? No... an acquaintance? No... Well whatever he is, he was there for his portrait and things were so awkward.... oh. so. Awkward. He never got out of his car while I was there. He just sat there and when I came out of the photography place, he waved a very awkward wave and I didn’t know what to do in return so I did nothing... yeah... I just couldn’t process thought due to my nerves. I was texting my friend non-stop to give her a play-by-play of the events as they were occurring. Our current theory is that he does like me even though he doesn’t really know me but he understands that I’m not perfect, in fact, I’m quite the opposite and he can sympathize because he isn’t the most mentally stable individual either.

My dad is going to come back home soon so I better wrap this up.

-going to downtown Disney tonight with my chums

-went swimming and hung out with my fried that I hadn’t seen in forever (only like 3 weeks)

-have actually been sleeping better (because I’ve actually been sleeping!)

-finally got info about paying for church camp because I’m too poor to pay it myself so I need a scholarship.

-I really want to make a music video but I don’t know of what but it’s probably going to feature my little blonde musician friend...

Okay... that’s all I can think of.

Auf Wiedersehen

-sabrina