owch...

I’ve had a pretty awesome time since my last post except for a few bumps… like Alyssa’s car not starting, losing the make-up I bought as Sephora, and some other things… but in the end it was fine. I spent the night at Melissa’s house and spent today with her going to Panda Express, Ulta and then to Sam Ash and then to Alyssa’s house where she gave me my Sephora make-up that I had accidentally left in her car. We watched an episode of Lie to Me; I’m so addicted to that show now! The weirdest thing that happened was when we started talking about our experiences kissing and Mel asked me the most unexpected question: did he ever kiss me… Needless to say, I was caught off guard. I stuttered out an answer before switching the subject as quickly as possible. She noticed. It’s not that I’m uncomfortable telling her about it, okay maybe I am kinda of uncomfortable, but I just want to forget about it, regardless of how much it seems like the universe disagrees with me… I mean maybe as horrible and just plain wrong it seems, I’m meant to be with him… because life is like a fucking circle for me because even when I go off and do something, no matter what, I always end up in the same place with the same person and I’ll admit it her but no where else, I love the predictability… but at the same time I hate it because no matter how hard I want to get away, I end up in the same fucking place… I’m just sixteen (soon to be 17), I’m too young to have found the one, especially if that one was born a decade before me! I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to think, I don’t know what to believe… I swear to god my life feels like a soap opera… I need a vacation! I'm going to try to get my mind off it by talking about how I’ve figured out that I want to play the banjo! I saw one at Sam Ash and I’ve been thinking about it for a while… I just really really want one! Okay, I want to go lay down because I gave myself I headache… sigh

Is love
supposed
to hurt
this much?






tot ziens

Sincerely,
Sabrina